random thoughts smooshed into a blog

I am so excited about graduating. I have waited a long time and now the time is coming. I've been working on my senior page for the yearbook, trying to find pictures and trying to decide what to write on it. What do I want everyone to look at in their yearbook and remember me by? It's hard to know what to put. I want to put pictures of friends in the States but there isn't enough room. So I decided to put family and people that i am either always around or REALLY close to. But I have a book written instead of a short paragraph. I am always one to write a LoAd. I can't just write a short "Thank you to everyone who has always been there...." i have to go into detail, mention people's names. ... and then i realize i am caring too much about other people's feelings. If i don't mention him or her will they feel left out? Should I put a picture of her on? We're not best friends, but i think i should anyway ... But i shouldn't care. It's my page and i should put the people that have meant the most to me on my page, yeah? SO this is harder than i thought it would be. I have to be finished by friday. And i thought i was finished just now but I am starting to reconsider some of the pics/text i have on my page. I want my page to mean something to Me. Not just to people who buy yearbooks. I wish i could get someone's help! Wow, it's just a page in the yearbook, gosh!
I'm on swim team again! It started last week after boot camp ended and I am the only highschool girl. There's one 9th grade boy on the team but the rest are middle schoolers... so it's interesting. But I joined to stay in shape and learn how to swim better and swimming is fun for me. So it doesn't really matter who is on the team. We've got a great coach and that's all ya really need.

This past year I keep hitting myself for quitting ballet. When i decided to quit it was because i had to make a choice: guitar lessons or dance. And i chose guitar since i was always discouraged in ballet that nearly everyone was better than me and i had stopped improving for a while. I just felt like i was going no where and everyone else was way beyond me. Then i kept getting the smallest roles in the ballets which just added to my discouragement.... so i was like "well guitar you can do your whole life, and i love music so why don't i do that?" But i wish i could've stayed with ballet and done guitar as well. Of course that wasn't an option, but i'm debating on whether i would wanna go to beginner ballet classes in college. Just for fun. Ballet is so much fun and... so beautiful! I still dance around my room all the time. I can't dance but i can sometimes do a bit of ballet-ish stuff.

Dad just got back from Lodja (interior of Congo, "up-country"). He was speaking at a conference of like 450 people. He spoke the entire time in Tshiluba, his "mother tongue" that he grew up speaking when he lived in the Kasai! He got a lot of attention, i know.... and this group of 3 or 4 people who had traveled 3 days ON FOOT loved him and were so happy he spoke in a lang. they could understand. At this conference there were 2 meals for 400 (or however many) people every day from thursday-saturday! That is one heck of a lot of greens and beans and Chickens!! My dad said as a gift they gave him a live rooster and 3 hens He held them like the congolese do, by their feet upside down, and dad said the rooster kept trying to peck him, so when he did that, dad would knock him on the head! I hate roosters. They also gave him lots of fresh fruit as another gift. Those people's hearts are so big. They have nothing but they give all they can! My dad said he had an amazing time, and I think he felt at home again out there in the country (the Kasai part of the Congo is really 'out there!').

I went to a lock-in last weekend and it wasn't as bad as everyone thought it would be. but i guess if you come with a negative attitude you're not going to have fun...or if you just don't come at all then of course you can't have fun!! well, i came with a POSITIVE attitude and i had a great time just hanging with Liz & Chaima (since there were only like 4 ppl there my age!) ... we just don't have time everyday to sit and talk about anything and everything at school so this was really fun! And we swam, and i made spaghetti and brought that to share with them... and chaima brought us toblerone chocolate and apples :-) We watched 2 movies and i fell asleep during the 2nd one (Taladega Nights. Who wouldn't fall asleep with all that NASCAR and dumb humor?!) ... kinda just crashed right there in the auditorium... but that was fun. Then i went to sleep around 3 while everyone else (the guys mostly) played soccer out on the basketball court! I had no energy and was getting a cold so i am glad i decided to sleep! We had awesome croissants in the morning for breakfast and then went on our way home...Anyway here are some pics from that night.
I really wanna get out of Kinshasa even more now. We're praying we can do SOMETHING cool for Spring break --- which is April 2!! Excited about that!!Okay the bell's about to ring so i'm gonna stop this one right here.