It's looking a lot brighter!

Every day gets better and better. The clouds are finally starting to disappear and I know I will survive. I've got this guy. He's unbelievable. He's powerful. He's comforting. He Loves Me for who I am.

His name is Jesus and He holds me in His arms and whispers that everything will be alright. And I know I can trust Him.

And I know that He is the most important part of my Life right now. It is HIM I am getting close to. I've been growing so much that I am so happy right now! I am so thankful that He caught me when I fell so hard (when I thought I couldn't pick myself up again). And He caught every tear that fell, and is holding my hand. He's right beside me ALWAYS. I've fallen in love with my Savior and it's the most awesome experience in the world. What a feeling! Going deeper with Him. Every day. When I feel like everything is coming undone and falling apart, I just call out to Him and He sews it up or puts on a patch. He's healing my heart. He's stopping all the bleeding. I have a new joy. A new outlook on life.
I'm changing.
I'm stoked about that.
I'm devoting my heart and soul to Him. More and more. You can't grow without a little testing and suffering! God knows what He's doing. Sometimes He takes away good things to get us to get deeper into HIM, and closer to Him, and to remind us and make us realize HE IS ALL WE NEED!

And every day of course it's a battle. I'm a sinner and I'm a screw up, but He always forgives and I know I can always crawl back to Him, wounded and broken, and He will heal me. And make me like new. He's protecting me. Defending me. I am waiting on Him and trusting Him to get me through this rough patch. I see a lot of sunlight in the distance though. And the darkness around me has begun melting.
"Getting Into You" - Relient K
When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me so unsure of these
Things I ask myself, I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

Chorus:
I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for a second our eyes met
And I met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into
(chorus)
I've been a liar and I'll never amount to
The kind of person you deserve to worship you
You say you will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do you say
I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into
(chorus)

He said, I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into